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bleh

Sun, 25 Sep 2005 15:21:01 GMT

yo soy ..... liking school already.

First Day of school consisted of :

Analysis of Spanish 1a: It was pretty cool was taught by a TA who is again pretty cool. This old guy got yelled at for reading a newspaper during her lecture. And 35% of my grade in that class is a written two to three page final in Spanish... sucks. And the class is taught strictly in Spanish again that sucks.
Dicussion for Calc (which I hadn't had a lecture yet): There were alot of people who showed up just in case like me... but we ended up leaving cause there was no point.

Second day of school:

CAlculus: I have a first year professor, the homework is easy, the lecture was about functions and how to find functions... again easy.
Chemistry: And this is where is starts going all wrong... my professor in this class has a deep somewhat hard to understand german accent. He's pretty cool, with a good sense of humor, but in a class of 300 its hard to see when you show up late cause you last class was across campus and you only had 10 minutes to get there but whatever. I had to sit in the back row of all these people, and if you don't know me very well. I'm short.
LuNch with AubRi.... mmmm RubiOs is so good.
Conversational Spanish: OKay another TA teaches this class, but he's pretty cool. He speaks spanish the entire class, that's how both of my spanish classes are taught. I guess it's helps with the whole learning process, but it takes alot more effort to figure stuff out.

Then I go home and sleep cause my first class starts at 8am in La JOlla, meaning I have to leave at 630 am to get anywhere.. It sucks, But I am going to a university... and its awesome....

my first class of english on monday we'll see how that goes..

Fri, 16 Sep 2005 04:01:42 GMT

Schools starts in a bit....

My books total were about 500 hundred dollars for my first quarter...

FOOTBALL Season has started so I'm working all the time.....

.............................................................................................................................................................................................wow

Tue, 09 Aug 2005 21:15:02 GMT

To think that so many people are leaving or have already left, it's sad but another stepping stone towards the rest of our lives.. Things have been great lately... two jobs, wonderful boyfriend, some new friends, good tips.. it's been great. I still need to hang out with those of you leaving and you know who you guys are.. well give me a call....

Oh by the way .. I stepped on a stingray and it hurt...

and I don't like red tide, it's gross..

Tue, 12 Jul 2005 17:18:12 GMT

It's wonderful to think that things could have turned out so good.....

Sun, 26 Jun 2005 21:47:45 GMT

mmmmmmmmmmmmmm Summer time is great I guess... Drama ... heartbreak... things of all nature have already begun but as always I will pull through... It's funny I went to Orientation for some insight into college life and now I am scared shitless for this upcoming year... how am I going to survive...

Here's their beginning line-up for me...

1. Mechanical and Aerospace Engineering 1
2. Math 20B (pretty much Calculus 2nd semester)
3. Chemistry 6A/6LAB
4. SDCC1 ( A writing class to pass the writing placement test)

Ri-damn-diculous... I'm fucked

Fri, 17 Jun 2005 16:01:09 GMT

Mariss and I.....Cassandra, aubri and I.... mi famila
Mateo and I aww
A soldier and me.... Heatherweight, Aubri and I six years of friends... corey and I
Matt lodin and me.. best buddies
Swim Buddies.....dad and me.... Mommy and me
Most important of all me graduating..

Wed, 08 Jun 2005 14:49:46 GMT

Last day of school today... wow

Wed, 08 Jun 2005 03:01:18 GMT

prom wow .. thats all i have to say

Sun, 22 May 2005 15:37:18 GMT

I can't believe Prom is in less than two weeks... lol... amazing. When are we suppose to get our cap and gown?

Sat, 14 May 2005 06:02:12 GMT

Here I am just got home from work.. tired.. and coughing. I think Brianna might have given me a cold and I wasn't even around her that long... sniffle... work tonite... MUCHO drama... but despite the managers yelling, servers screaming and crying, and people being unhappy with a majority of what you do for them.... oh yeah and getting stabbed with a pen.. I had a decent night making decent money trying not to let everything effect me :0) I love it.

whoa there cowboy

Thu, 12 May 2005 04:22:20 GMT

The strain of a long day. Not just any long day, but a day involving an AP test, therefore making it all the much worse. I am way tired and I have leagues tomorrow. It will be interesting as most of the fast people can’t make it on Saturday for the finals. I am sure most if not all of us would make it to the finals. I felt really good about the AP Gov test. I had a really good day, consisting of eating at Pat and Oscar’s and shopping, but things as they usually do took a turn for the worst...coupled with other things going on, it was needless to say another misunderstanding faultless incident in which I am being punished for. I don’t understand people sometimes, and boy am I trying my best to understand, but I guess it’ll never make sense to me. I can’t sit here slitting my wrists over spilt milk everyday to make everyone happy, or to make sure everyone is okay with me. You either understand me, don’t understand something and ask me, or sit and stew. I can’t help the last one of those because that is your decision ultimately. I hate to think that things are like this, but I’m kind of done. Anyways, I need bigger boobs, end of that discussion, lol. I take my english placement test for UCSD on Saturday, I am way nervous, because who knows they might say I’m too stupid to be put into any class. LOL. That would be pleasant to say the least. I have no one to go with because my friends are either too smart or belong to a cult. Fun Times. Paulo makes me mucho happy and I couldn’t be happier with him right now. I think Prom will be good, and fun as the countdown to it dwindles. ... but I leave this entry with a happy note... gnight

when this frame fails me
will i trust you to carry me through?
i know there's no such thing as safety
but i know what a promise can do.
will i trust you, will i trust you to carry me through?
i will trust you, cause i know what a promise can do

Just a couple pictures of my oh so wonderful friends... from the past month or so...

The boys posing before the rock climbing adventure, so cute... lol

Here's me and that hot girl Kaylyn.... we are hanging out before rock climbing

Keri, Aubri and I at freshmen admit day at UCSD.... it's going to be super expensive... lol

Here we are at Stephen's Surprise Bday Partay... Cutest Couple :0) I love you guys. Thanks for always being there for me whenever..

Here is me (swamp girl) and Heatherweight .. at Stephen's bday partay... we are soo hott

Well that's all the pictures for now.. byebye

Mon, 09 May 2005 06:31:34 GMT

It's sad to think it's come to this...It's painful to see a legacy crumble...it's heartbreaking to realize you guys are not going to be there...

one day the dreamers died within us
when all our answers never came
we hid the truth beneath our skin but
our shadows never looked the same

a ghost is all that's left
of everything we swore we never would forget
we tried to bleed the sickness
but we drained our hearts instead
we are, we are the dead

and when we couldn't stop the bleeding
we held our hearts over the flame
we couldn't help but call it treason
after that we couldn't fill our frames
after that our shadows never looked the same

a ghost is all that's left
of everything we swore we never would forget
we tried to bleed the sickness
but we drained our hearts instead
we are, we are the dead

in summers past we'd challenge fate
with higher pitch and perfect aim
and standing fast, we'd radiate
a light we loved but never named
but the answers never came
and our shadows never looked the same

a ghost is all that's left (we are the ones who lost our faith)
of everything we swore we never would forget (can we be saved?)
we tried to bleed the sickness
but we drained our hearts instead
we are, we are the dead (we are the ones who lost our faith)
a ghost of everything we thought but never said (can we be saved?)
we tried to bleed the sickness
but we drained our hearts instead

we are the ones who lost our faith
we dug ourselves an early grave
we are the dead, can we be saved?

i wash my hands of this

Wed, 04 May 2005 01:13:34 GMT

Oh, that I could scream
And the world would stop and listen
And these scars could speak in volumes
But who has ears to hear
Or eyes to see
Again I scream
But my voice is buried in an unearthly silence
Like in nightmares when ghosts steal your breath.
I pray that power be not in my words
But in truth that supercedes the mind of man
And our dead hope, and our blind faith in means that look to justify the ends.
I feel a presence in the room
I feel cold fingers close around my neck.
With out you I am lost.
Let mine eyes not fail with looking upward

...whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune, or to take arms against a sea of troubles and by opposing end them...

Sun, 01 May 2005 17:17:45 GMT

Let's lie some more guys... wow I completely wish I was one of the guys I bet you all have no reason to lie to one another. But god forbid I want to do something with you guys or I have something planned with one of you. Lied to. Hurts. Left Out. Hurts a bit more. Can't believe that. Friends? I highly doubt that anymore.

It's funny to think I trust you.

Sat, 23 Apr 2005 23:33:59 GMT

Could it be any more painful than that? Just want to say wow... could you be any less .. fuck .. fuck you for being so goddamn annoying.

work today

hopefully hanging out tonite with people..

Sat, 09 Apr 2005 22:09:26 GMT

My birthday was a the best day for the most part.. there was one big huge letdown... and then it got better again.. but for the most part I love my friends to death... they make everything better... specially paulie

Wow fun night!!!

Sun, 27 Mar 2005 16:31:45 GMT

easterbunny came anyways... hehe

church by myself..

dinner..

fun

tommorow...packing my stuff

Sat, 26 Mar 2005 09:05:05 GMT

to sum it all up.. work 9 hours... paul's...work thinking about it tommorow.. yelled at by mom.... not even going to mention 'friends'....found out my grandma is really sick not doing great... good friday mass is always depressing...

other than that doing ok.. got my car back.. better

oo i have bday presents to buy tommorow ...prolly by myself..peace

Thu, 24 Mar 2005 17:48:45 GMT

Well all my letters have come in... I'm pretty happy about it:

UCR: accepted
UCI: accepted
UCM: accepted
UCSD: accepted :0)

I am really happy about getting into UCSD thats the number one school I wanted to get into anyways... Well this past weekend I worked 30 plus hours training for TOGO which was way fun. It's hard to learn the menu and I still don't feel like I've got it all down.. but I feel like I'll manage. My car on Sunday broke.. the radiator has this big gash in it and it is leaking radiator fluid.. I don't know how that happened but it did... So my car went in the shop Monday.. it's Thursday. Not so much fun. So swim practice yesterday kicked my butt.. it felt like it took forever and I'm definitely not looking forward to today's practice. Last Night... thanks to you..Yesterday we all went and met Brett when he got off work.. then we watched A Knight's Tale... haha we didn't even really watch it we all just sat around and talked about stuff...good times.. I'm sad brett is leaving for a week... but I guess disney world is cooler.

Yawn.. I feel like the beach..

Sat, 19 Mar 2005 21:52:12 GMT

its funny how things can be sooooo pleasant around here... (saracasm)

Fri, 18 Mar 2005 05:00:56 GMT

swim meet tonight... im tired... sore and cold...
Thanks for coming to my meet kay kay... even though i know you wre bored.....

Thu, 17 Mar 2005 06:22:47 GMT

I spent the weekend... stressed. As usual.. I worked, worried about swim.... etc. My family back east called and informed us that my Aunt was in the hospital becuase she experiencing heart failure... at this point she explained to all of us my Aunt did before she couldnt hardly talk anymore she felt she had lived her life to its full potential and if she flat lines wanted no recesitation. Coming home Monday from school, my father whom I hardly get to see informed me that this woman who had practically raised my mother, never married, took care of me when I was younger, as a 70 yr old woman played the game Sorry with me till I fell asleep.... died... I've never been more crushed as when I heard those words leave my dad's mouth that she was gone.. I cried... until no more cries came out.. Real pain... isnt always physical... I couldn't go to swim practice, I couldn't move from my bed all night.. I slept from 1am to 4am.. didnt eat... I think about her constantly... when it gets quiet when Im alone at home.. when Im in the middle of a test... I dont know.. everywhere... what gets me even more is that my Grandma is soon to follow... she is suffering from Alzheimers disease...can't even remember my name.. or even the names of her own children.. could it get any worse.. it could but to my heart this is the worst its ever been...

ap gov test... fair but honest..

need a 100 percent on that free response...

you are the best

swim meet tommorow at Granite Hills... 4 oclock be there

Tue, 15 Mar 2005 03:46:47 GMT

*TELL US ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey*
Name:	Jessica
Birthday:	April 8th 1987
Birthplace:	Los Angeles
Current Location:	Clantee
Eye Color:	brown
Hair Color:	dark brown
Height:	5ft 2 3/4 in bastards
Right Handed or Left Handed:	righty
Your Heritage:	italian, native american, mexican
The Shoes You Wore Today:	playbizzles
Your Weakness:	crying when i get emotional
Your Fears:	making bad decisions
Your Perfect Pizza:	peppertoni
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	getting into college not failing at life
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	lol
Thoughts First Waking Up:	crap what homework didnt I do
Your Best Physical Feature:	my butt
Your Bedtime:	whenver but usually 1130
Your Most Missed Memory:	playing the game sorry with my aunt
Pepsi or Coke:	coke
MacDonalds or Burger King:	mcdonalds fer shizzie
Single or Group Dates:	both
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	nestea
Chocolate or Vanilla:	choclate
Cappuccino or Coffee:	cappucino
Do you Smoke:	nope
Do you Swear:	yeah
Do you Sing:	all the time
Do you Shower Daily:	yeah i swim everyday
Have you Been in Love:	yeah
Do you want to go to College:	of course
Do you want to get Married:	someday
Do you belive in yourself:	im my biggest critic
Do you get Motion Sickness:	nope
Do you think you are Attractive:	they say i look and smell like a swamp so yeah
Are you a Health Freak:	hahahah good one
Do you get along with your Parents:	not entirely
Do you like Thunderstorms:	yeah
Do you play an Instrument:	nope
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	nope
In the past month have you Smoked:	nope
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	nope
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	yeppers many :0)
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	yeah prom dress shopping with the girls
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	haha not an entire one couldnt finish the last one
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	nope
In the past month have you been on Stage:	nope
In the past month have you been Dumped:	nope
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	lo nope
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	nope
Ever been Drunk:	yeah
Ever been called a Tease:	not thats i can recall
Ever been Beaten up:	nope
Ever Shoplifted:	nope
How do you want to Die:	quiet in my sleep
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	ob gyn
What country would you most like to Visit:	italy
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

Wed, 09 Mar 2005 04:52:37 GMT

I sit here... cold from swim practice, tired from school, exhausted by the implication of failing a Calculus test... help me...

Sat, 05 Mar 2005 05:32:05 GMT

So I officially do not want to go to prom... my options go to a "meeting" with people that obviously have a problem with me or not go and let everyone plan what im going to spend and where i am going... i hate prom...

im so effing pissed at everyone

you have no effing clue...

Wish I had someone I could talk to... everyone else seems to be doing just fine in that area